PREMIERE: Tearing Up announces debut LP; shares new single 'Said Something'
PREMIERE: Tearing Up announces debut LP; shares new single 'Said Something'
Friday, December 2, 2022 - 09:07
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Ontario psych-punk singer-songwriter Graham Caldwell, who previously shared music under the moniker Billy Moon, is back with his new project, Tearing Up. Following the recent release of his debut EP, Caldwell just announced Tearing Up's debut LP, ’Heavy,’ which will be out January 27, 2023. Today, we are premiering the lyric video for the record's second single, ‘Said Something.’ It is a song that hits particularly close to home as it discusses a personal loss Graham and his family endured. You can check out the lyric video below.

On the new track, Caldwell wrote:

"Losing someone is particularly strange because in life, we get used to things being temporary. We know we can never step in the same river twice, but this is assuming there will always be a river. When the river runs dry, it’s quite a shock, and given how often we were used to stepping in it, we find ourselves asking: where the fuck is my river?

Sometimes, these things happen because of an unknowable number of circumstances: Anyone who’s ever been in a car accident will know about having the thought of 'if I had just left home 3 seconds later...' or 'if that woman driving had checked her blindspot...' or 'if that guy in the truck had pulled over sooner.' Sometimes things happen and the reasons are too complicated for any one of them to the be sole reason for the thing that happened.

But then again, what if one of them was? What if one of them actually was and you could never actually know for sure? What if one of those things was something you did, unknowingly, absent-mindedly, that set off a chain of events that would ultimately end in tragedy? You will never know, but of course that means you’ll never be sure either.

Suicide is difficult because it blames both everyone and no one. The person who dies is both perpetrator and victim. It absolves everyone and yet also condemns them. You are both at fault and totally powerless at the same time, waving between the two feelings like a metronome. When I lost a young family member to suicide, many of us were completely dumbfounded as to why this person would choose to end their life. What made things worse was how they left no explanation, leaving us to try and piece together whatever their reasoning was, an endless circle with no real answers.

Time moves on and to some extent; our family’s been able to find some sense of closure. We accept how we’re powerless against the past and keep moving, for better or for worse, it’s all we can do."

The forthcoming record is not "easy listening" — "I wanted this record to hurt," as Graham wrote, and that motivation was largely inspired by a series of personal struggles that he experienced from late 2017 to early 2020, including the loss of his father, whome Caldwell and his brother had cared for while he was struggling with cancer. In those hard times, the people around him helped push him forward, and writing this record, in all honesty, gave him something to do aside from grieving. "October of 2017 to January of 2020 basically felt like one very, very, long year. But even before that, the record was always going to be called Heavy," he wrote.